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 Little Things Daydreaming turns my head into a realm of fantasies. I spend hours fantasizing my ideal life, instead of living the one I am presently just existing in. Like most people, my ideal life looks like a mostly unrealistic, perfect life filled with prosperity, wealth, love etc. If only the scenarios in my head would actually come to life. If only..... But life is not a rom-com, not until you start romanticizing the mundane things, the little things. We idealize a fake life too much to be able to romanticize and appreciate the one we are blessed with. When it's truly the little things in life which makes it so beautiful. I have always found the moments in my life that brought me the most joy are the small ones, whether it be looking at the moon while listening to your favorite playlist, a perfect bite of food, a time spent with your friends where you think to yourself “I am going to miss this moment”, going through an old photo album and having your grandma tell you

  A Long Way To Go Having made peace with myself, I began to accept the fact that no matter what I did and how I did it, I would always rank somewhere in the middle. There were days when I'd get compliments for my otherwise mediocre performances. One would think it was a sign that my work had improved but the only thing I could see was pity in the eyes of people who wished for nothing but success and growth in my life, which even today seems like a long shot. More often than not, I'd pay no heed to their compliments because being appreciated for something you know you're absolutely no good at, makes you feel more worthless than you would care to admit.  There was a time when I would crack a joke or two after they'd praised me. And somehow, that became my whole life, mocking myself every step of the way. Saying it helped me to cope with the frustration of not being good enough, would be an outright lie. Using self-deprecating humour was nothing but a defence mechanism

                              Muting the chaos I remember being 11 and my parents getting me enrolled in the school’s basketball team. Even now when I think about it, the only thing that comes to my mind is, "Everyone is doing something in their life, you should, too." However, much like my interest in politics, my liking for sports was short-lived and not because I disliked the idea of sports but because no matter how hard I tried, I couldn’t be even half as good as anyone else. Growing up, I realised that this shortcoming didn’t just apply to sports but to every single thing I had done and continued to do. Singing, dancing, writing, playing the guitar and sports like basketball, hockey, and badminton are only but a few of the many interests that I pursued over the years. But be it studying, dancing, writing or even something as simple as communicating, I was either second best or second to last. For someone who has tried her hand at so many activities, not being good at any

  Small Things That Matter I was walking my way back to my home with mixed feelings. There was a relief in finally overcoming my fear but also the thought of getting grounded by parents for the next fortnight. I had a wonderful experience that day and had made so many beautiful memories, but at the same time, I also feared the thought of the teacher picking us up in front of the whole class and thereby leading to embarrassment. This was all running in the back of my mind but still, there was not a pinch of regret that day. I strolled merrily with a grin like a Cheshire cat.   Accepted how we girls planned to meet for completing a group project where we were about to hang out for the first one hour and then work sincerely on our project but ended up spending the entire day having fun, swimming and eating out. This was not how the day was planned and supposed to go, but the way it went left an overwhelming effect on me. The next day at school would have been a lot more embarrassing b

  Living the moment .... I was busy doing differential equations with my headphones on. More than the sum, I was busy humming the line of the song as if I was the main character of the song. Suddenly, a thought stroke my mind about my future. What am I doing right now? why do I always found myself speechless when someone asks me about my future career plans. Well, I have no answers to these as well, but I feel it’s not always necessary to have plans. There’s nothing wrong with that. What if I choose to go with the flow? Exploring the world is fun, but I always fear the outcomes. The fear of things not going in the way I wish. There have been a lot many situations where planned things failed to happen. For instance, I planned to talk with one of my friends on call, but unfortunately, I slept. I can’t blame my timings, but such small failures make relations worse at times, makes me feel sad. Nevertheless, what about those moments where I, by mistake called my friend and she picked it. Th

  The calm after the turbulence  I didn’t realize when I started referring to myself as her and at some point, I became separate from her. Disassociation is what it is called, meaning to detach or disconnect from something. Now a coping mechanism, it also helps me remember how far I have come. It’s a very normal thing people go through when sometimes they switch into autopilot mode. I think we all look back to the time when we were emotionally unstable, usually during late school years before we started to understand ourselves and what we were looking for. And in my opinion, it is absolutely necessary to go through this period of chaos to find the difference between black and white while we figure out our lives.  As we grow up, we unintentionally start saying or expressing our feelings to people, but the problem arises when many a time they come out in the wrong way. Misdirected anger, non-stop crying, toxic sarcasm, and hate-instigating conversations are the result of suppressed emoti

  Her Emotional Turbulence It always starts with the little things like your leg twitching continuously or seeming to rush into things without patience or getting those butterflies in your stomach over every little thing. For me it was the feeling of unease and nausea whenever I had to do something I was not prepared for, it could be the smallest of tasks imaginable and I would still find it hard to process it let alone complete it. The thoughts of self-doubts creeping on me, step by step, making my confidence go down. At that time, 13- or 14-year-old Krinal didn’t know what suppressed emotions are, she didn’t know there was a healthy way to express these emotions because nobody taught her to. Nobody told her that these negative emotions are not her being a terrible person and this was okay, but only if they were dealt with appropriately. Now, I had two choices since I matured enough to understand, they were to either blame someone or get over it and start doing better. So, I wouldn’t

  In her Space... Continued… Scene 2: Take 2 – The protagonist finds a new friend I always stand by the fact that you need friends to party with at your success but even more to turn towards when you don’t really feel like the best version of yourself. I had successfully put my guard up by deciding not to care about what prejudices and expectations people had about me and by choosing to lend a deaf ear to these people. But who was fooling? What was I… a robot? Nobody can just turn off the emotions and stop caring in the blink of an eye now, can we? So, I had to somehow channelize all of the bottled-up mixed emotions somewhere. I couldn’t talk to my family because of course the brown household things, right? As sweet as my parents have been they also had far more expectations and criticisms stored for me than they ever told me and so I never expected them to understand the place where I was coming from. And then there was Covid obviously  I couldn’t show up at a friend’s place with a pa

  Taking on the Reins Scene 1 Take 2: The one where the protagonist showed a different side of herself. You know why I said that because until a few months ago, I felt that my life was like any other riveting Bollywood movie and I was the protagonist of it, who acted on everybody else's terms but her own.  I am the kind of person who's always sporting an ear-to-ear smile goofing around in a childish manner because that's what I have been doing throughout the course of my "film". I wasn't allowed to cry I wasn't allowed to be stressed because of what everybody else thought of me. This bundle of hidden emotions that I secretly bottled up in my head every night, coerced me to pull my hair out. Because  "Oh you are a smart girl you must score a 95%" "Oh you are a good student you aren't supposed to hang out with those brats". My entire personality was overshadowed by my academic performance. At times, when I didn't fair well in my t

    One Step Forward Sometimes, someone would mention a wonderful thing about their sweet sixteens, and I would pull out my hair, trying to forget the self-deprecating things I felt when I was that age.   Sometimes, I would look at a photo of myself from two years ago, and I would break down, remembering how I used to be the one volunteering to click pictures because I never wanted to be in one. And then I would think about hiding - so much hiding from people and crowds and events and the world.   Most times, I remember being scared of never changing. Of having a stagnant mindset. Of degrading myself for the rest of my life like I used to. I was scared of the life I would lead if that happened.   Other times, however, I think about that one time I was on stage, and even though I fumbled, people were in front of me, listening.   I flip my hair twice, realizing that I do not look at myself in a video call nowadays.   My sister pointing a camera at me, I do not hide.

  How I Found My Calling "I cannot let the fear of the past colour my future." - Julie Kagawa Until two months ago, my brain would doze off every morning as soon as I woke up. It sounds so normal, doesn't it? Happens to the best of us as we transition from school to college, you'd tell me. But it's most probably happening to you because you aren't getting enough sleep or are too lazy to wake up at 6 a.m. Every. Damn. Morning. Even on sacred Saturdays that we reserve for a long nap.  My point is that you know, you probably find it easy. You are so sure that you would understand a difficult topic if you search for it well enough. That you can watch reference videos and absorb it all in a jiffy. But, until two months ago, I was afraid of waking up every day, feeling stupid in a crowd of the smartest brains. I was afraid of zoning out five minutes after waking up. I was afraid of having to see some numerical figures crammed up on my laptop screen and never knowing

  “Great is the art of beginning, but greater is the art of ending.” - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow Nobody likes to say goodbye. It’s exceedingly painful to bid adieu to something you don’t want to leave. They’re considered to be a sad and heartbreaking experience but they don’t have to be. Goodbyes are a cathartic exercise in interpersonal relationships which gives closure to the human mind, something which it greatly values. What makes it so difficult is confronting the fact something which we thought was permanent, simply isn’t. It forces us to come out of our bubble and wander into the unknown. When we bid goodbye to someone, we are also acknowledging their impact in our lives and how they’ve made us better. Human beings are creatures of habit, we don’t like change. A lot of people avoid saying goodbyes to even the people they love the most for the sole reason that it opens an entire pandora of emotions. We feel so much because a part of ourselves is being left behind as well. It mak

 Kaavyakosh is a beautiful collection of poems that we personally adore! Kaavyakosh has been written by multiple celebrated writers across the globe in various regional and international languages.  I believe that we have achieved our aim of breaking the linguistic barriers because each and every language has its own beauty and charm, and we should not restrict ourselves from consuming great literature just because we do not know that language. Kaavyakosh isn't just a bulletin but an insight into the feelings of people, what they were going through in the lockdown. The whole world was under the arrest of Covid -19 pandemic. People scattered all over the world stood with each other in these difficult times. The language was never a barrier. People bled words of the same feelings and these feelings are the significance of Kaavyakosh. We, at Editorials, aimed at bringing these feelings to a greater platform for all the people to read. The pandemic has left us isolated and has given us

  “Investing success doesn’t correlate with IQ after you’re above a score of 25. Once you have ordinary intelligence, then what you need is the temperament to control urges that get others into trouble   -Warren Buffet Behavioural finance, a subfield of behavioural economics, proposes that psychological influences and biases affect the financial behaviours of investors and financial practitioners. It focuses on the fact that people are not always rational, have limits to their self-control,  and are influenced by their own biases for example in markets with manipulative prices sometimes and invests maximum without any logical basis solely on behavioural nature. Moreover, influences and biases can be the source for explanation of all types of market anomalies and specifically market anomalies in the stock market, such as severe rises or  falls in stock price. Behavioural finance seeks an understanding of the impact of personal biases on investors. Common biases include: Overconf

  Many of us must have heard policy makers encouraging a green economic recovering and prioritising economic and financial policy to avert climate change. This brings us to the emerging traction towards sustainable finance and green products that aim to promote climate change related environment solutions and to fund environment-friendly projects. Green bonds are one of the ways wherein investors can directly invest in fighting climate change along with fixed returns. Traditionally, bonds give investors a fixed return for a fixed term and funds generated by it could be used for general corporate purposes often not known to bondholders. Unlike these, proceeds from green bonds are earmarked for green projects related to renewable energy, sustainable waste management, clean transportation and other activities that offset greenhouse gas emissions and provide businesses with enough returns to satisfy the interest payments of a green bondholder. There are also new parameters upon which inves

  An adaptation is a recreation of a literary story that would suit the time, place and situation of the adapter. "Angoor" is one such effort from the famous writer-director Gulzar. It is based on Shakespeare's play "The Comedy of Errors". The play is full of comic situations derived out of two pairs of identical twins and their mistaken identity. Gulzar has successfully maintained this stream of humour while presenting the story in the form of a film. The objective of this study is to investigate that to what extent Gulzar’s Angoor – a cinematic adaptation of Shakespeare’s “The Comedy of Errors” has been indigenized, keeping in view the transcultural audiences. Necessary changes have been made to make the film more relevant. For example, the very beginning of the original play and another scene have been discarded in the film to suit modern times. Gulzar has utilized many cultural and literary references as a means of making a local version of the foreign story

  Haider is a crime drama that was written, produced and directed by Vishal Bhardwaj in 2014. It stars Shahid Kapoor and Tabu as the lead roles. Set in the Kashmir conflicts of 1995, Haider is a modern day adaptation of William Shakespeare’s Hamlet. Haider, the protagonist, is a young poet who returns to Kashmir at the peak of the conflict to reach to the depth of his father’s disappearance. He ends up being tugged into the politics of the state.  Hamlet consists of a lot of blank verses that prove to be extremely impactful and pivotal. Haider certainly bores the same power when it comes to blank verses. The play and the movie both have notable references and commentary about the prevailing social conditions. They end at a very open cliff, leaving the audience to interpret on their own; it also plays on psychological levels. The most striking similarity between the play and the movie, according to me, has to be the chilling gravedigger scene. The primary differences between the play an

  When William Shakespeare originally wrote his play Othello in the 17th century, he could possibly not have imagined Bipasha Basu performing Beedi in 2006, but here we are. Omkara is the second part of Vishal Bhardwaj’s Shakespeare trilogy based on Othello, following Maqbool and followed by Haider. Omkara details the story of its eponymous character, Omkara (Othello), a man from a lower caste, who falls in love with Dolly, (Desdemona), who comes from an upper caste. Like Brabantio - Desdemona’s father in the play - does not approve of Desdemona’s marriage to Othello because of his ‘moorish’ backgrounds, Dolly’s father Adv. Raghunath Mishra does not approve of Omkara’s caste. Othello’s military pursuits are now Omkara’s equally ruthless and bloodthirsty Indian elections. Othello’s manipulative friend Iago is Tyagi, who lies and cheats and moves around Kesu, Raju, like pieces on a chessboard until the culmination – convincing Omkara to kill Dolly, and an assassination attempt on Kesu. T

  With the rise of Bollywood’s popularity, adaptation films have been playing a prominent role in its success. These adaptations are being made to represent the good old classics with the twist of modernism in it. One such sentimental adaptation is Maqbool. It is a 2004 Indian crime drama film directed by Vishal Bhardwaj, which is based on the prominent play Macbeth, written by Shakespeare. With the Mumbai underworld on its backdrop, this film revolves around the love story of Miyan Maqbool (portrayed by Irrfan Khan) and Nimmi (Tabu) who is a mistress. The love between them leads to the murder of Jahangir Khan a.k.a. Abba Ji (Pankaj Kapoor), who is the employer of Maqbool and also the Don. His murder leads to transfer of the Don’s throne to Maqbool which leads to guilt and a series of unfortunate events. Also, two corrupt policemen (played by Om Puri and Naseeruddin Shah) play an excellent supporting role by giving rise in numerous conflicts and playing a crucial role in the climax of

  Microsoft co-founder and billionaire philanthropist Bill Gates is one of the leading public figures in the fight against coronavirus pandemic, but also a target of several conspiracy theories.  Conspiracy theories and misinformation linking Bill Gates to the coronavirus' origins were mentioned 1.2 million times on television and social media between February and April this year, according to an analysis by the New York Times and media analytics company Zignal Labs. Several theories linking the Microsoft co-founder to coronavirus have flooded social media ever since the pandemic broke. So, how did Bill Gates become the voodoo doll of COVID conspiracies? The genesis of these distorted tidings dates back to 2015 when an unassuming-looking Gates issued a dire warning from the stage of TED conference in Vancouver saying that "if anything kills over 10 million people over the next few decades, it is likely to be a highly infectious virus rather than war." The fact that he has

 The Bermuda Triangle is also known as the Devil's Triangle. It's a region in the western part of North Atlantic Ocean where a significant number of ships and airplanes have mysteriously disappeared. The Bermuda triangle vicinity is one of the most heavily traveled places in the world with ships constantly passing through it to reach the American, European and Caribbean lands. Commercial and private plants routinely fly over it. Conspirators believe that paranormal activities or extraterrestrial beings have to be credited for the history of disappearances. The first unusual appearance happened around September 17th, 1950. Several ships and airplanes were reported missing. Flight 19 being one of them. In an article written by American legion magazine the author informs that Flight 19 was recovered in April,1962.  The flight leader was heard saying, "We are entering white water, nothing seems right. We don't know where we are, the water is green, no white." The Navy

 False Memory is a phenomenon where a person recalls something that did not happen or recalls it differently from the way it happened. In 2010, this shared false memory phenomenon was dubbed as the ‘Mandela Effect’ when Fiona Broome claimed that she and a thousand other people had a false memory of the death of Nelson Mandela. He actually died in 2013. Theories surrounding this theory: 1. Strength Hypothesis - it states that during powerful situations people are expected to demonstrate rational behaviour. Most people, no matter how daring will adhere to the laws of the land in order to gain protection and security. 2. Construction Hypothesis - this claims that if a true piece of information can alter a respondent’s answer, then so can a false piece of information. Upon asking a respondent a question that provides a presupposition, the respondent will provide a recall in accordance with the presupposition. 3. Skeleton Theory - the procedure in which a memory that is recalled can i

  Conspiracy Theories gained popularity in the 1960s when POTUS John F. Kennedy was assassinated. During this time people really started to understand the impact such conspiracy theories could have on the society- psychologically and sociologically. The Psychology in Conspiracy Theories Psychologically, conspiracies can be harmful. It is associated with an increase of paranoia and believing in them is related to a mental disorder known as schizotypy. Conspiracy theories often make use of complicated and detailed arguments, including ones which appear to be analytical or scientific. Experts assert that explanations related to conspiracy theories can often be ‘consistent.’ Psychological motives that lead people to believe in conspiracies can be epistemic, existential or social. Vulnerable and disadvantaged people are the targets of them. Instead of helping them overcome such weaknesses, conspiracies help worsen them. Furthermore, they also make people less likely to take actions that cou

  "The main thing that I learned about conspiracy theory, is that conspiracy theorists believe in a conspiracy because that is more comforting." - Alan Moore A portrayal of a situation or event that invokes a conspiracy by powerful groups, often political in nature, can be termed as conspiracy theories. When such groups constantly reinstate a certain direction of thought, your mind tends to take the other direction, sometimes. When people around the globe begin believing it, it becomes a conspiracy theory. Conspiracy theories have a higher effect in a period of war or economic depression. This thinking  is brought by a strong human desire which is important and self relevant. Conspiracy beliefs result from a range of psychological, political, and social factors, most of which exist inside people's heads. Conspiracy theories are explanations for events or situations. They are often connoted negatively. It basically answers the question “What might have happened instead o