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  In her Space... Continued… Scene 2: Take 2 – The protagonist finds a new friend I always stand by the fact that you need friends to party with at your success but even more to turn towards when you don’t really feel like the best version of yourself. I had successfully put my guard up by deciding not to care about what prejudices and expectations people had about me and by choosing to lend a deaf ear to these people. But who was fooling? What was I… a robot? Nobody can just turn off the emotions and stop caring in the blink of an eye now, can we? So, I had to somehow channelize all of the bottled-up mixed emotions somewhere. I couldn’t talk to my family because of course the brown household things, right? As sweet as my parents have been they also had far more expectations and criticisms stored for me than they ever told me and so I never expected them to understand the place where I was coming from. And then there was Covid obviously  I couldn’t show up at a friend’s place ...

  Taking on the Reins Scene 1 Take 2: The one where the protagonist showed a different side of herself. You know why I said that because until a few months ago, I felt that my life was like any other riveting Bollywood movie and I was the protagonist of it, who acted on everybody else's terms but her own.  I am the kind of person who's always sporting an ear-to-ear smile goofing around in a childish manner because that's what I have been doing throughout the course of my "film". I wasn't allowed to cry I wasn't allowed to be stressed because of what everybody else thought of me. This bundle of hidden emotions that I secretly bottled up in my head every night, coerced me to pull my hair out. Because  "Oh you are a smart girl you must score a 95%" "Oh you are a good student you aren't supposed to hang out with those brats". My entire personality was overshadowed by my academic performance. At times, when I didn't fair well in my t...